I can count the number of times I've been paranoid about something bad happening and it actually ends up happening, on my one hand. Compare that to the hundreds, if not thousands of times I've been paranoid about stuff I end up laughing about later, and you have a definite winner.
Just to give you an idea,here is one thing I am currently paranoid about:
I worry that the people that I work with actually can't stand me because they've heard some elaborate rumour which is completely untrue about me, and instead of confronting me directly about it, there is a major plot going on to try and get me out of the company. Part of their plan is to keep me under surveillance from one of the apartments opposite mine and other such ridiculous thoughts.
I know for a fact that some people might think I should consider getting psychiatric help, and I can assure you that, had I had the means, I would have definitely seeked professional help. However, I don't have the means, but at least I have recognized my problem and I can work on it on my own - thank GOODNESS for the wonderful Internet and green pastures!
What frustrates me the most, is the fact that I KNOW my thoughts are irrational, yet I can't do anything to stop them from happening. I can only calm myself to a rational state.
I love my job and colleagues so much, it's an absolute shame that I'd waste so much time by obsessing with my demons...
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