Voel normaal vandag...

Daar is party dae wat ek so normaal voel , niks worries, niks paranoia ens.
Ek wens dit kan altyd so wees... ek probeer uitfigure wat die verskil is tussen dae wat ek fantasties voel en dae waar die paranoia vreeslik erg is. As ek 'n "trigger" kan identifiseer sal dit awesome wees, dan kan ek actually self iets daaromtrent doen?

Ek weet daar is mense wat my nie glo oor my mental situasie nie, maar op dae soos vandag gee ek net nie 'n hel om nie, EK weet wie en wat ek is en fuck the rest. Nou wens ek ek kan altyd so wees.
'n Goeie quote wat ek gelees het kom by my op : "Worry less about your reputation and more about your character, because your reputation is who other people think you are and your character is who you really are" Ek is nou net nie seker wie dit gesê het nie. Ek dink op my "af" dae moet ek dit net oor en oor vir myself sê.

Get off your high horses

I'm so SICK of it. There are all these people out there claiming to embrace their "weirdness" because being "normal" is so overrated. Or even cheesier - love the fact that being called weird is like being called a limited edition. Pah..
Nobody has ANY idea what it feels like to not feel normal every single damn day of your life. To WISH with all your might just to feel like the person next to you. To be paranoid ALL the god damn time. To think you're not good enough. To feel like people don't like you. To feel like people think you are a bad person and KNOWING you are not.  NOBODY KNOWS!
It sucks.